The person I love is always silent, rarely leading any conversation unless absolutely necessary. This person is always stuck to their phone, too busy dealing with their problems to let me attempt to help them. This person is always glued to their DOTA2 game, never bothering once to ask me to play with them, but that is why I like this person. I like them for the amount of passion they put into the things that they do, even if they neglected me a lot, I was really happy to see that they were enjoying themselves, regardless of my own selfish desires.
The person I love is a loner; an introvert true and true, who likes to sit at the back of the class, Reading posts and other things on their phone, not paying attention to the teacher giving their advice in front, but they have a great awareness of movements in the class. Still, they continue to work hard and achieve good results and because of that, despite his introversion, he is very knowledgeable to the outside world. They do interact with me, but I wonder if they truly think of me as a friend, or as a other classmate instead.
The person I love is an asshole, yet they are so gentle at the same time, almost like they have a split personality. Sarcastic jokes fly out of their mouth constantly, and pain is dealt our accordingly with equal amounts of ugly comments flying through the room. Yet, even after all that, they have the most humility- apologizing to the people who were hurt and giving those who weren't a good thanks or even another sarcastic comment. They truly don't wish to hurt anyone, and want everyone to be involved, and that kindness and that compassion for people is what makes them, at least to me, as flawed as they are, perfect.
The person I love also has been in pain, even until now they are still hurting, grieving, but they hide it away in their big heart, so no one has to experience the pain that they have been through. It was a good attempt, but eventually I found out, and after a long time of being together, they trusted me enough to share his story with me, as I did earlier in the year. They have the most saddening past, but they also were mature enough to come of those problems stronger and more comfort. They weren't telling me their story because they had sympathy for me, nor because they wanted me to sympathize with them. They were telling me this , because they genuinely wanted what's best for the both of us.
They say that the friend zone is very pitiful and embarrassing, but in my eyes, that's the wrong belief, because true love wills the good of someone, without there being any form of benefit for the person that loves that someone. Maybe I am in the friend zone, and maybe I am pitiful in your eyes, but your words won't change my actions- I will still love this person, and hopefully, by God's grace, have the strength to not ask for anything in return.
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